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I just want someone who'd look at me like I'm their prized possession. Thats what I've always envisioned a father and daughter relationship would be. I've been told my entire life I looked like my father, walked like my father, and even enjoy similar hobbies. Unfortunately, I attempted to find that in other relationships and ended up heartbroken.

I thought I saw it Alex. I adored him because he genuinely loved me. I thought he could do no harm, and I still do to this day, but even more before. Well unfortunately things went south a couple of years ago which caused us to not communicate for a year. Honestly, my heart was broken. Not many people text me on my birthday quite honestly, so when I didn't receive a message from him the damage was definitely done. While we moved on, and I forgave him. I suffered a severe depression for the entire year.

My father died seventeen years ago when I was only three years old. I was told he loved me very much, but I don't remember what it was like. To truly have someone feel blessed that you were born is a serious way of feeling about someone. I feel as though that is how I felt about me. But unfortunately I'm 20 years old and I don't know what kind of hugger my dad was. Did he prefer long hugs or would he have picked me up when he hugged me.

But I know that he's with me all of the time. Harm has hardly comes my way and I completely thank God and my Father for that. I just wish I could've had that love, I feel as though I would be in a different space in my life. While that could be a good thing or bad thing but what if? I've looked for it recently by trying to become comfortable enough to get to know my father's family. I feel as though then I will be able to connect some dots and learn about my daddy. Because honestly, I need him now more than ever.

Love always,

Jamie Elise

In loving memory of James Everette Steen, Jr.